Paranoia at rest...

Finally, my mind can relax, and OH, what a sweet feeling it is. After 5 torturous days of waiting, my final grade was released and my toil toward my MBA is now complete, finito, mais nada! That's right, folks. Tomorrow, I turn in my application for graduation!!

I swear, as if forcing myself to admit to having ADHD were not enough, I also obviously have a touch of paranoia. All week long I've nearly panicked myself with thoughts that the grader would come back with a criticism requiring added effort or a complete redo of my video presentation because it was 1 minute and 14 seconds shorter than it was supposed to be. Honestly, what a relief!!

It feels SO great to be able to relax without feeling guilty, like I should be working on this or that for school. I guess that is part of the problem with a self-study course like the one I decided to pursue at WGU. When it came down to it, I knew deep down the faster I completed my degree, the less it would cost me; and on the contrary, the longer I took, the more expensive it would be. Ever the penny pincher, I was determined not to take longer than 2 years.

Oh what intense craziness the past 6 months have been. I've learned some great stuff, but more than any course material, I've learned the simple importance of finishing what you start, of not giving up, and of believing in my true abilities. Success!! :)

It's unofficially official...

My self-diagnosis was confirmed somewhat today: I likely have severe Adult ADHD!

My company hopped on the band wagon of promoting healthy lifestyles last year, and I signed up to receive periodic emails from health.com simply to get my name in a drawing for a $500 gift card. Well, today's email had a link to a story entitled, "Take the quiz: Could you have adult ADHD?" As one of the questions helped me confirm, I "often feel restless or fidgety," therfore I wasted no time and clicked right on that link and took the test! (You can take it too, if you want. Muah-ha-ha!)

Here's the scoring matrix:

So, where did I score on this 24-question test, you ask? How about a friggin' 92! Holy crap-oly! I KNEW it! And all this time I simply thought it was the caffeine from my Mormon Coffee (translation: diet Dr. Pepper, diet Mtn Dew, or the occasional straight Coke). NINETY-TWO.

Figuring that test might be an anomoly, I read on and found a link to a shorter, 6-question test. For this one, the test taker who scores 11 or higher "indicates that your symptoms may be consistent with Adult ADHD." Hmm... 11 points, eh? Wanna see how I did?

Uh, yeah... I was at 11 just HALF WAY through this test! On a positive note, this helps me to understand myself a little better. I have been absolutely racking my brain and stretching myself as thinly as possibly lately to get my MBA wrapped up before the end of term on 2/28. Focusing has been the greatest challenge, but I've had to force myself. Well, now I don't feel like as much of a slacker as I had felt I'd been. The interesting thing going forward will be to find out what my physician has to say next time I see him. :)